I Can Relate

I came across the following quote by Rose Marie Miller in Alan Kraft’s Good News for Those Trying Harder (great book):

“I love to be in control.  I am addicted to duty, order, my rights, my ways, and to outward performance.  I am outwardly moral, yet inside I am full of anxieties, fears and guilt.  For years, I heard the words of the gospel, but I never heard the music.”

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I’ve barely heard the music, but the little music of the gospel that I have heard blows me away.  The gospel sets me free from the need to control and my addictions to duty, order, rights, performance.  I crave this music and yet my hearing comes only by grace.

I try so hard to hear it but am coming to understand that my efforts don’t tune my ears.  God’s mercy does.